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yellow everyone!im back (:
survived.alive and kicking.
i had only 4 plus hours of sleep over the weekends.
its amazing what social support can give you...it seriously allowed me to survive through 2 tests, 1 report, 1 viva.all within a week's time.
if we didnt agree to meet on a sat in school to do our stuff for viva (a test which is taken like an oral but of cos, with preparations done), i would have panicked on sun.
if we didnt have a stay over on sat to chiong our report, im pretty confident i would have panicked on sun too.
thanks peng yous! :D
i sompa you could see all the faces of relief after we ended our stats test ytd.
oh well, although its not the end of the hectic lifestyle...we have gone through this much.
and i think we are champions in our own hearts! (:
not everyone understand.
so like i said before and would love to emphasise...
if you dont know what im going through, please do not judge me.
cos only people who have gone through the same thing as me would have the right to comment.
if you are supportive of me, i appreciate it alot.
but if you think im deprived of a social life cos i LIKE having alot of work to do, then i dont need you as my friend.
(:
anw all the hardwork have not gone to waste.
and i got an A for my stats and a B+ for my physio.
contented to the max. (:
next up will be the BSM prac exam!
jiayou everyone.
remember, we are the CHAMPIONS.
(:

tomorrow's alumni.
a day i have been looking forward to since the juniors' nationals.
but i wont be going tmr.
cos there's work to be done and although i would really love to go and spend just a lil time on the court,i know im not disciplined enough to do that and i will end up neglecting my work.
to those who are disappointed,angry and so on, im sorry and i dont know what else i can say besides, sorry. :/
nevertheless, i received 2 happy pills this week.
one from layn who said she was motivated reading my blog.hahaha.
and i love you!
jiayou with your assignments alright! (: we can do it together!
and another from ah gui who sounded so fierce in her first msg to me but eventually after explanations, she understood. (:
thanks ah gui!
i've learnt to enjoy simple pleasures in life.something as simple as a "jiayou" really means alot to me now. (:
and of cos, i guess there are some whom i think i may have offended but dont judge me.
you are not me, you wont understand.
i only can apologise once again.
if i had the choice, i would want to be free all day long.
whoever wants to be stuck doing assignments everyday.
not me either.

thanks again for the happy pills! :D

For the next 2 weeks at least, everyone will see very little of me.
here & in person. -.-
probably will still be online, rushing reports and presentations.
i will prob be spending 2/3 of my time in school and the other 1/3 at home to finish up what is instilled for me.lol.
i dont even know when i am free now for some leisure, meet-ups...im not even sure if im going for alumni.
the prob here is that i want to and i would love to.but the things uncompleted just make me feel guilty and somehow staying at home seems to be a better choice. :/
i want to continue ranting on how sad my life is.
but i think this very tiring cirriculum has brought out the very best in me.
i have gone through learning to meet datelines, making sacrifices and also, has allowed me to step out my comfort zone.
i have seen people who are less fortunate than me and yet have such strong willpower.
this is what is keeping me going.
and of cos, the people who have been by my side.my family. :D my funneh coursemates who never fail to make me laugh everyday.and of cos, my other friends who have kindly understood what im going through now and are not blaming me for not spending quality time with them. (:
this is what keeps my mental state healthy.
anw...we watched a video called "mad about english" in class today.
it made me realise how much we (or maybe just me) tend to take alot of things for granted.
i could go on & on about my life and my feelings.
but oh well, i still need to rush for my work.

a few more years, for that better cause. (:

since i have no evidence to catch that auntie red-handed...
i will just resort to venting my frustrations here.
on friday night,as i was packing my bag, i realised that my thumbdrive was missing.
so i suddenly remembered we were using it to print stuff earlier that day.
so today...we went to ask the auntie if she saw any thumbdrive.
my friend on behalf of me: auntie, i lost my thumbdrive. did you find any thumbdrive here?
auntie: (without asking which day the thumbdrive was lost) no.i didnt see any thumbdrive here. (answered frantically)
guilty conscience to the max.
my friend: but i was the last customer on friday and i forgot to remove the thumbdrive.
auntie: i was the one who kept the computer usb port. didnt see it.
the auntie went on to add...
auntie: but i saw someone running back frantically to collect a thumbdrive on friday.
what rubbish.we were the last customers can.and she still said she wanted to close soon.
FINE.SHE WIN.still fabricate some story. -.-
its not about losing the thumbdrive.but losing the stuff in it.
so my friend suggested i go and give the auntie my email address so she can keep the thumbdrive but email me back my stuff.
i know i dont have enough evidence to start accusing her here.but you have seen her flustered reactions.
where in the world is her integrity and somemore, she deals with money.
and i mean, shouldnt an auntie in her 40s be less childish and less selfish...
the world's so complicated.
im not being black-hearted or heartless or cruel...whatever.
but if the auntie really took the thumbdrive and pretend she didnt, may the thumbdrive be installed with some virus.
my funny mum tried to console me by agreeing that the thumbdrive will have virus, should that auntie take it.
if only she understood the worry of losing something important.
i believe in karma...
what goes around comes around. good luck auntie.

i feel much better after ranting. (:
back to proper work now.
dont be affected by what i typed above.
im still as nice as you think i am. (:

im going for Yellow Ribbon Prison Run'09. :D
got psycho-ed by sexy to go.lol.
anyone going too?
and i cant believe im going for the 10 km competitive run instead of the 5 km fun run.
haha.
oh well, got to start training.hahaha.


I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
- love story, taylor swift.

finally after a hectic and somewhat worrisome week, everything is going to be fine by tomorrow. (:
anw.i was on the bus and when the song playing in my phone changed to qing tian...
memories all started to surface and there was the classic butterflies in the stomach feeling.
hahaha.even after so long -.-
lol
just being random.haha.
anw.received an email from my cambodian friend.
and he talked about the cambodia-thailand conflict.
and immediately i thought of a song by MJ who has already passed on...
heal the world.
and after i read the email from my friend, i realised how distant i am from the world.
i practically know nothing much about world updates.
time to do something about it man.
how about having 48 hours in a day? (: